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Today was a much better day than yesterday was!

Jeannie came and picked me up and we drove down to see Faris. The plan was to go during his hands on time so we would both get a chance to hold him but his temperature was a little on the cold side. The nurse didn't seem too sure about taking him out and I didn't want to do anything that wouldn't be good for him. Jeannie had said that holding him would be a great birthday present but I guess he just wanted her to really work for it.

The nurses today were trying out the oxygen prongs instead of the cpap mask. He was tolerating it well and his saturation level was staying within a normal range but he was just not happy about those little tubes in his nose. This stubborn little man just has his mind set on doing things his own way. I still think that he just wanted to be out of my stomach and karate kicked the amniotic sac in an effort to come out that night. He can be as stubborn as he wants to as long as he keeps going in the direction he has been going. 

I am so proud of how well he is doing and I make sure to tell him every time I visit him. I talk to him about what his brother has been doing in Utah. What his daddy is doing at work and about his dog.  I tell him about his aunts, uncles, and all of his grandparents and how much they all love him. I am finally able to drive so I can spend more time down there with him, especially while Hamza is still in Utah. I can't wait to read him some books and just spend more time with him, holding him and helping with whatever I can.

There will be many ups and downs throughout this adventure. Yesterday was a down day and I am allowed to have those from time to time but today was a much better day. I had a great afternoon with Jeannie and a wonderful evening with my family. I felt like a spoiled 16 year old who finally got their license! (Hey, if you weren't allowed to drive for 2 weeks and your husband comes home with a new car for you the first day home from the hospital, you would feel the same way!) And although I miss both of my kids more than anything, having a break and time to recover is kind of nice and will give me time to focus on myself and Faris.